Yesterday did not go anywhere near what I planned for Heru-wer’s birthday. I had planned to give offerings and then write a letter, but it only sorta happened.
My husband reminds me a lot of when I used to work with Set. He is an unstoppable force, whose energy it’s easy to get caught up in, in the best way. So for his Birthday Heru-Wer got beer while the Hubby and I played Zombies on Call of Duty. Though I guess it evens out since 2 years ago when I last celebrated Heru-Wer’s was the best celebrated during operation get Heru drunk on tumblr including the picture I drew of him haha. Hopefully the others will go a little better :).
Yesterday, I had a lot of plans for today, the whole set of Epagomenal Day’s in fact. However this morning had me waking up to an almost migraine and and upset stomach that had me calling into work today. About halfway through what would have been my shift I was laying in bed fiddling and trying to get everything under control when I had the sudden thought that “oh dear if I don’t start feeling better I won’t be able to make my Birthday celebration offerings”. Shortly after that thought my stomach stopped giving me fits and my headache became more manageable. Coincidence or sneaky Netjeru determined to get his Birthday offering? I’ll let you decide haha.
Either way shortly after I finally dragged myself out of bed to shower, and when I got out I went to look for a green shirt to color coordinate for Wesir’s day, and the only green piece of clothing I had was my “Get a life” Mario shirt…suffice to say I was in a fit of giggles for a little while, here’s looking at you Wesir ;).
Now it’s shortly after noon, and I am contemplating on the offerings I am going to give, as I don’t have much on hand right now and can’t go to the store. I’m think an orange, and maybe a beer or water, and an incense is all my stomach can handle right now. I hope he understands. Later if I am able to swing it I want to do some birthday Heka, and maybe write a letter, we shall see how the rest of the day goes, see you again tomorrow for the next Eagomenal Day :).
As I work on shadow work, I found a program called MOODgym. In it, it talks about how what you think is what you feel. Now that got me thinking a lot about how my expectations of situations have influenced how I feel about the outcome etc. Now how does this relate to my religion/spirituality you may be wondering. Well in more ways than I originally thought.
First I will go the obvious route and talk about my RPD. Back when I first joined the House, the Netjer I worked with were a bit different then who I was divined. Does that mean I can’t and don’t still offer to them? No, I do but my mindset was not suited for it yet. At the time I worked with Set, and Hethert and Djehuty, and tried Heru-wer , Wesir and Bast for a time. However, through it all I was convinced I would be divined daughter of Set, and honestly if I had, had my RPD done at the time and got Yinepu I would have been confused and disappointed. I may have even left the house. I did not have the open mindedness I needed to have the RPD done.
As time went by I eventually slowed down in my workings with Set, and I settled into working regularly (or semi regularly anyway) with Wepwawet, Djehuty, Sekhmet and Hethert. This went on for about a year before I got my RPD done, and Honestly I feel that it was Yinepu I was working with the whole time anyway, content to be called Wepwawet until I learned otherwise. Once I quit being bull headed and actually listen I found where I was supposed to be all along anyway, and it couldn’t feel more right.
That brings me to my next pondering a on expectations, communication with the God’s or in my case the Netjeru. I have a partial “Godphone”, that I have developed and worked on over the years and one thing I have found is sometimes, no matter how hard I try what I want/expect to hear sometimes over rules the true message. Like in the above case, I was so dead set on one way I was missing all the signs I belonged elsewhere.
As I work through MOODgym, and become more and more aware of how my Expectations actually effect my religion and my interactions with the Neteru the more I will try and do my best to not let it affect it so much.
I am Snowcoveredpath on tumblr, but as I recently underwent the RPD , and Shemsu Naming as part of KO, I decided I wanted a blog to chronical my experience after the divining.
I was divined as Daughter of Yinepu-Wepwawet and beloved of Sekhmet-Hethert and Djehuty.
I am super excited about my journey from here out!